This just might be the best thing to happen to me. And I’m pretty sure it is. This is gonna work.
This is just crazy. I never thought this would have happened to me. But I’m perfectly fine with it.
My year/life just got a whole lot better. I recently met this girl. Online. Yes, we ran across each other online. We hit it off immediately. We’ve talked on the phone and over Skype. Emotions and feelings have surfaced that have never happened to me. I really believe that this will work. Something about her just tells me that she’s right for me. I’ve never felt so sure. Needless to say, I’ll be taking a little road trip in a month or so.
Indianapolis Indians’ home opener is next Thursday and I can hardly contain my excitement. On top of going to the game, it’s a date too. I met this girl through school and we seem to be hitting it off fairly well. I’ve gotten to know people lately and I’ve been in a much better mood. That and I’ve got a new dog. It’s amazing how much owning a dog can change your perspective on things. Off topic already. Baseball…ok. I’ve been waiting for this day since the World Series ended. I plan on going to a few games every month this year. There’s going to be hot dogs, beer, soda, fresh cut grass, and baseball. This is why I love summer so much.
I’m finally turning 21 next Tuesday. I think my friends are more hyped up about it than I am. Yes, I’m excited to be able and go out and have fun with them, but I don’t think they realize that I won’t do it on the scale they have. I just want to have a good time.
Next week is just going to be so awesome. I’m ready for it to be here. Monday can’t come around fast enough. I thought I’d never say that.
I’m in Chicago at the art museum. I’ve never felt so out of place before. Very strange feeling.
So things are getting better. I don’t think about the break up as much as I used to. I’ve started putting myself back out in the field and talking to girls. I’m taking a different approach to it so hopefully this way can work and at least it broadens my search a lot. I spent a good 6 hours today talking to a girl for the first time, so I was pretty impressed with that one. Let’s see of I can get this to continue. I’m turning over a new leaf. I’m sick of having a lot of self pity. That bs needs to stop. It won’t get me anywhere is life. Especially when it comes to finding the right girl. Haha
“I don’t think you can truly stop loving someone. You might break up and feel anger and hurt, but the love is still there. Once that final wall is torn down and the phrase, “I love you” comes out, you can never take it back. You might not ever get back together again, but if you truly love someone, you always will. That intensity might change, but it will always been there. No matter how bad they hurt you, or how painful the memories are, you will still love them. The level of connection you shared with them will always remain. It may take a while for hearts and feelings to heal, but they will eventually. There is no falling out of love, the intensity just changes to a different level…”